2 Heart breaks ...

Mom says, 'I am sure ZaZ has felt a lot of loss and heart-break in the
first 3 years of her life ... BUT in the last 3 weeks she has really
expressed that heart-break associated with loss! The first was when
Auntie Cas left for her overseas trip ... ZaZ hugged her SO tight and
would not let her go... Cas cried a lot, and ZaZ just held on tight.
The second heart-break was Dad! After 3 weeks of ZaZ being with Phil
24-7 and absolutely LOVING being with Dad and all the adventures
associated with that - playing together, swimming, jumping in waves,
cuddling, stories @ night ... We told ZaZ the day before that Dad
would be going back to Africa for work and we are going to be
staying ... ZaZ asked the whole day, 'What if I want Dad to oooppa
ooppa me' (Her's and Phil's language for throwing in the air) ... Mom:
'I am sure Art an ooopa oopppa you'. ZaZ: But what if I REALLY want
dad to ooopa opppa me.
ZaZ: What if I want Dad to read me stories at night?
ZaZ: What if I want Dad to put on sunscreen?
The night before Phil left ZaZ was very out of sorts.
At 6am Phil woke ZaZ up
ZaZ: Where you going Dad?
Phil: To the airport
ZaZ: No ... I'm going to Miss you ... Don't go
ZaZ clung to Phil like a baby kaola ... she cried (and ZaZ hardly
cries)
It was SO hard for all of us ...
ZaZ went back to sleep and sporadically woke-up crying for Dada!
The next day, ZaZ was very sad and told everyone, 'I am sad' ...
When she went to sleep, just before she closed her eyes, she said
'Where is Daddy's top for me to sleep with so I can smell him?' ....
She woke-up this morning and the first thing she said, 'Are we going
back to Africa today?'
Later in the day she said, 'Dad is in Africa at boring work, we are
here on holiday having fun!'.
Everyday she goes to Aqua Bar and takes out a Diet Coke bottle to take
home to DaDa ...
At the pharmacy today, she asked, 'Can we take this burny chewgum to
Africa for Dada?'

ZaZ ... when you read this one day, I hope that we have handled your
heart-breaks correctly and that you have learnt how to handle your
heart-breaks (and as much as possible not experiencing too many of
them ... )

Daddy and I love you poppet!